MJ

 As I’ve gotten older, I’ve started to think more about what ageing really means. When I was younger, I wasn’t exactly excited about the idea of getting older. I’d look at older adults and see wrinkles, missed opportunities, and maybe even a lot of regret and not having done things I would want to do now, but would do if I was younger, and I’d wonder if that was something I’d have to dread for the rest of my life. But as the years go by, I’ve come to realize that aging isn’t something to fear—it’s something to embrace in a cringe way. It's less about what we lose as we get older, and more about the things we gain along the way. Aging isn’t just about getting older, it’s about becoming wiser, more confident, and appreciating the small moments in life. One of the most noticeable changes as I age is the way I view the world around me. When I was younger, I had this constant drive to prove myself—to be successful, to look perfect, to accomplish everything as quickly as possible. But as...

 I can't help but feel a growing sense of unease about how deeply it’s shaping our lives. There was a time when we looked at technology as a tool that would enhance our lives, make our work easier, and keep us more connected. However, as technology becomes more integrated into our everyday activities, I’m beginning to see the unintended consequences that may be more harmful than we realize. While there are undoubtedly many benefits, the negative effects of technology are becoming harder to ignore, and it’s important to consider how these changes will impact our daily lives shortly. The most significant concerns I have is the way technology is altering our social interactions. Social media, messaging apps, and even video calls have made it easier to stay in touch with friends and family across the world. Yet, this supposed "connection" is often shallow and lacks the depth of in-person interactions. It seems that more and more people, myself included, are spending hours glu...

I think I've come to the realisation of my own self-esteem being really low, actually concerningly low. My expectations of a lot of things don't make sense, yet I think it is tolerable and acceptable to be treated in unpleasant ways, and then act surprised when I do get treated the way I had already expected them to treat me. In the end, I blame this all on low self-esteem and not knowing my own true value. I think now more than ever, I know myself well and true, but I don't think I've mastered differentiating someone toxic and someone real. Mastering this obviously takes experience, but what if I am not here for the experience. what if, I just want to know from the start whether it's a hit or miss. I think I've grown tired of putting up with relationships and friendships with no fruition or progress, it's like I'm always just waiting for the departure date of a flight, I knowingly booked for them, I can't blame this entirely on them, but I think it...

We often neglect the idea that beautiful things can consciously exist beyond our own peripherals. Today is a perfect example of this. I vividly remember a time when blog writing was such an exciting way for me to speak and share ideas openly, I didn't necessarily care for an audience or for affirmation, I think I just liked the idea that maybe when I do share my writing, my thoughts too were also something that resonated with others in a collective sense, and maybe I wouldn't feel I was the only person who thought such (malice things) things (very main character of me by the way) but it was fun. All in all, I stopped cause I realised that to an extent the people around you can somehow feel a certain way about what we say, or how it sounds from one's own perception; In saying that I think today I'd like to just write a few words, and maybe see where it goes. It's very much journal-diary-esq, so take or leave whatever you find here, I'm not too bothered about what...