Age as non-linear

We often neglect the idea that beautiful things can consciously exist beyond our own peripherals. Today is a perfect example of this. I vividly remember a time when blog writing was such an exciting way for me to speak and share ideas openly, I didn't necessarily care for an audience or for affirmation, I think I just liked the idea that maybe when I do share my writing, my thoughts too were also something that resonated with others in a collective sense, and maybe I wouldn't feel I was the only person who thought such (malice things) things (very main character of me by the way) but it was fun. All in all, I stopped cause I realised that to an extent the people around you can somehow feel a certain way about what we say, or how it sounds from one's own perception; In saying that I think today I'd like to just write a few words, and maybe see where it goes. It's very much journal-diary-esq, so take or leave whatever you find here, I'm not too bothered about what I say, or where this ends up going, for it is just a few words and sentences after all. 

I, for one, have been recently walking a lot, whether that be to the local park, a reserve or just somewhere. Usually, when I take these walks, I don't really think about where exactly I'm going, but rather I consume the immediate things I see, smell and hear before me; the sky, the trees, the houses, the roads, the birds chirping, passing traffic, my breathing, smells of strong lavender from someone's garden, or freshly mowed grass from the park. All these things alginate to an experience of pure gratitude, in these very moments I recognise that I am having a very high human experience, unaltered by the thoughts of things that loudly exist beyond me like taxes, the housing market, employment, expenditures, worldly issues, dying people, war and famine. Now that I think about it, "living" in itself is a full-time job, I think we've forgotten how human we are, and thus we have simply given in to the idea of just being conditioned humans of this civilisation or society, working to uphold whatever it is that needs to be upheld, however, I think this notion can be taken with a grain of salt, or discussed in depth later on in the future. *spirals*

I recently caught up with my cousin, and we went to the Mangere bridge area, the place where there's a lookout and you can see the industrial buildings and all. Anyway, we were talking about a few things, and one thing that really stuck with me from that conversation was the idea of "Maturing" or in other words "reaching a certain age of seriousness", and what that means in moving forward with in life, and how that co-relates to the decisions we make in life, which in result affect our future. I, for one, had never thought about this idea seriously until I got home. I think the idea of growing older every year is just a timestamp or reminder to us of the things we have done in the years prior, but interpersonal though, a very methodical way of thinking about it, but never deeply sentimental. Yes, I can have gratitude and accept God has blessed me with another year, but it never becomes a sign or opportunity for me to think I need to accomplish or achieve certain things, at this and that "age" such a linear way to think. Yes, we can have goals to reach at this age and whatnot, but I am very unphased by the notion of maturing, it's non-linear to me, and ageing has no relation to maturing, it's interpersonal. I know people who are pushing 50, and still can't comprehend the idea of having human empathy "HUMAN EMPATHY", which I think is an attribute you need beyond just maturing, but to be human. Instead, measure age by experience. This way we don't feel confined or categorised into things we should and shouldn't do.